"as if you need to be from the South", honestly, you don't have too. Why? It's because we accept people as nicely it could be. You felt ashamed because of what we are doing? Oh, c'mon! Keep in mind we don't do anything to you. You have that thinking not ours, so better yet try to understand and compose your thoughts.
We don't mind you at all! We don't care who you are or what you are, we mind our own business, do yours. Don't blame us if we 1st met your guy and been with him for a decade. Asked his parents why they have to lived from South and not in North.
For the record, your the only girl that I've been nice with. Entertain your queries about him or their family. I tried to be in my proper manner every time I saw you. But hey, think! did I ever busted you around for you to get rid of us? NONE!
You provoke me to do what I should've do a long time ago. And now, Im playing your game so play mine. Dont act as if you were beaten up to death.
Don't say anything that will push me to my limit 'coz as much as possible I want to ignore you all day! Your actions fed me up. Im gonna say everything I wanna say in front of you.
We don't ask them to chose between you or us, we know who'll they chose and we understand. For a very long time, we don't mind. we don't bullied you. We were polite and nice (trying!). Girl, there's no competition going on who he love most! coz for sure its not you either. You are competing with yourself and when you gather all your answers you throw it away to us.
Think. Think. Think. Clear your mind! We don't do anything, we don't mind you (until now) and call many back ups you want but be sure TO KNOW THE STORY! KNOW THE FACTS.
You want it to be easy as a trash? play my game! let's see.
Dont act as if you know everything about us!
A shout out of my life.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Anti Social Personality
To begin with, I am a Psyche graduate. Psychology is a branch of Science that studied HUMAN BEHAVIOR.
I remember way back college the professor will usually asked "why do you take up Psychology as your course? isnt your own choice or parents' choice?" I always answered "Its my personal choice. I was inspired by our guidance counselor in high school about the course. And I find it interesting, may be because I want to understand myself more and how to mingle with other people and these course is a pre-law, another factor."
Well, I could say that out of five I hit three objectives.
First, i find it very interesting! somehow i do not believe in theories :) specially Sigmund Freud because it's more of sexual stuffs <he is the founder though :)>. I do believe and consistently live in the Maslow's hierarchy (alright, get a pen and paper! quiz later. :D). The ladder to success are more on reality.
Second was, it's a pre law. yeah, i took law school for one semester, I so want to go back. But because of expensive tuition fees that I cannot support myself even though I am working I cannot. And besides I want to study. ONLY STUDY. I could pass all the subject if only I focus my attention to study. But it cannot be done. Why? I still have sibling who is not yet finished studying and Mom wouldnt take all the responsibility for me because like I said I am employed. But in due time, ill go back and study the Philippine Law and be a dilligent Lawyer. (naks!)
Third, its a personal choice. I cant remember anything my parents told me that you should take this or that. they let me choose. Actually, when I was in freshman year in High School, I want to take up Mass Communication or Tourism. May be tourism, my Mom wants for me (guess!).
The thing that my course that I didn't internalize is understanding myself and how to deal with people. Why? Its because I know what to do but when it is right in front you or you are actually on that scenario, you cannot avoid it. you'll burst into anger instead of understanding yourself or them.
I am an extrovert person. I "usually" go out with friends, have fun, I always love to see people I care surrounding me. But when I am into a relationship, these kind of actions are limited. Oh yes, its about my relationship again. One moment we're okay, one moment not. Lately, I figured it out what's wrong with me. Because I am too demanding that he cannot give me what I really want! That sometimes our situation didnt permit us to these kind of things. But now, as things go longer between us. I figured out what is wrong. It's HIM, capital H-I-M. He was raised with the mentality of "friends cannot give you good things" but rather they'll take you to the bad side of life like using drugs, being alcoholic, etc. But my point is, I do not have friends like that. I choose my friends. And I choose who to be with. I choose to be with them because I know they're a good influence. I cannot remember anything that they drive me to do these stuff or if you cannot do this you're not welcome. DUH??? no!
The point is you do not have to choose between whom you should go with. There's a lot of couples nowadays that there bf's friends are friends with you and vice versa because my definition of a friend is FAMILY, specially when you guys grew up together. Its fun. You could laugh all that silly things happened to you when your first crush founds out that you admire him/her, your first pee in school, your first monthly period and you're panic because you do not know what to do, your first use of sando bra then a bra =))), your first suitor who turns out courting your another friend, your first heart break.. several heart breaks. The separation between the two of you because you have different university and different course. And you're scared because people you'll meet might not want you. But then you gained more friends.
Having a different circle of friends is fun, its like your candidate for an national election and every where you go people knows you. Its like your celebrity. Yes, i had that kind of life! (im not being boastful.) HAD which means past.
From the first day I met him, I know that having a lot friend will be one of a factor why we will be having arguments. And yes, indeed! Im glad that my friends understand these kind of situation. BUT I CANNOT UNDERSTAND! You could be friends with every body as long as you know right from wrong.
For the past three years, I could say that my life have been him, me, him, me! And earlier when we had this discussion regarding those, I said this to him "hindi lang tayo ang tao sa mundo, walang kailangang piliin, wala kang ka-competensya sakin. walang nagpapa-pili sayo," and he said a lot! that it hurts me so much to the point even my family was included. its foul!
He is ANTI SOCIAL! BIG TIME!!!!!!!!!!!! and he want me to be the same. but I cannot. I know there is nothing wrong. But I really changed a lot from the time we became couple because thats what he wants and that is my choice. His a loving, caring person no doubt. But once he burst into anger all hurtful things will pop out to his mouth. And these sucks me so much. I have a good memeory in experience and it will take me a while to forget it.
I again, deactivated my facebook account and now I am thinking if i should deactivate my twitter too. But these blog? I won't! because he doesnt know I have this! and I do not have hundreds of followers here. And people is not interested with what I am posting. This is one way of showing him that he means so much to me. It's so silly. He acted like a ten year old kid. He doesnt even know how to RELAX! sometimes I want him to visit a psychiatrist and have couple of session but I'll bet he wouldnt believe what will the doctor say.
Aside from being ANTI SOCIAL, he don't accept opinions, his failure, when his wrong. He always want what he thinks. His a relogious person but sometimes I know its bad, but I think he is a fake believer of God. or he has faith in a wrong way. Am I bad? Oh yeah, I asked question that no one will bother to answer me back! And he is also obessess (in me) which is I think good factor but its way too obssess that he doesnt want me to have my own life or career. May be he wants but I should be ALONE WITH HIM!!!
Ill never forget what my professor told me, "if you really want to understand other people, you should know where they are coming from", I understand where he came from. But its too much. I do not know until when Ill be like this or he'll be like that.
argh! but the good thing though we're okay! :). I just want to voice out all my emotions so by the time I could talk to him tomorrow Im okay. We're okay. The relationship is still there.
I owe God big time for giving me this patience and understanding. I hope someday he (bf) will build a wall of fame or statue outside our house or somewhere in the land and write it down all the things Ive done for him.
I WISH!!!!
peace, one love, spread it out -from Cabbagie's Vblog.
have a good life! ;)
I remember way back college the professor will usually asked "why do you take up Psychology as your course? isnt your own choice or parents' choice?" I always answered "Its my personal choice. I was inspired by our guidance counselor in high school about the course. And I find it interesting, may be because I want to understand myself more and how to mingle with other people and these course is a pre-law, another factor."
Well, I could say that out of five I hit three objectives.
First, i find it very interesting! somehow i do not believe in theories :) specially Sigmund Freud because it's more of sexual stuffs <he is the founder though :)>. I do believe and consistently live in the Maslow's hierarchy (alright, get a pen and paper! quiz later. :D). The ladder to success are more on reality.
Second was, it's a pre law. yeah, i took law school for one semester, I so want to go back. But because of expensive tuition fees that I cannot support myself even though I am working I cannot. And besides I want to study. ONLY STUDY. I could pass all the subject if only I focus my attention to study. But it cannot be done. Why? I still have sibling who is not yet finished studying and Mom wouldnt take all the responsibility for me because like I said I am employed. But in due time, ill go back and study the Philippine Law and be a dilligent Lawyer. (naks!)
Third, its a personal choice. I cant remember anything my parents told me that you should take this or that. they let me choose. Actually, when I was in freshman year in High School, I want to take up Mass Communication or Tourism. May be tourism, my Mom wants for me (guess!).
The thing that my course that I didn't internalize is understanding myself and how to deal with people. Why? Its because I know what to do but when it is right in front you or you are actually on that scenario, you cannot avoid it. you'll burst into anger instead of understanding yourself or them.
I am an extrovert person. I "usually" go out with friends, have fun, I always love to see people I care surrounding me. But when I am into a relationship, these kind of actions are limited. Oh yes, its about my relationship again. One moment we're okay, one moment not. Lately, I figured it out what's wrong with me. Because I am too demanding that he cannot give me what I really want! That sometimes our situation didnt permit us to these kind of things. But now, as things go longer between us. I figured out what is wrong. It's HIM, capital H-I-M. He was raised with the mentality of "friends cannot give you good things" but rather they'll take you to the bad side of life like using drugs, being alcoholic, etc. But my point is, I do not have friends like that. I choose my friends. And I choose who to be with. I choose to be with them because I know they're a good influence. I cannot remember anything that they drive me to do these stuff or if you cannot do this you're not welcome. DUH??? no!
The point is you do not have to choose between whom you should go with. There's a lot of couples nowadays that there bf's friends are friends with you and vice versa because my definition of a friend is FAMILY, specially when you guys grew up together. Its fun. You could laugh all that silly things happened to you when your first crush founds out that you admire him/her, your first pee in school, your first monthly period and you're panic because you do not know what to do, your first use of sando bra then a bra =))), your first suitor who turns out courting your another friend, your first heart break.. several heart breaks. The separation between the two of you because you have different university and different course. And you're scared because people you'll meet might not want you. But then you gained more friends.
Having a different circle of friends is fun, its like your candidate for an national election and every where you go people knows you. Its like your celebrity. Yes, i had that kind of life! (im not being boastful.) HAD which means past.
From the first day I met him, I know that having a lot friend will be one of a factor why we will be having arguments. And yes, indeed! Im glad that my friends understand these kind of situation. BUT I CANNOT UNDERSTAND! You could be friends with every body as long as you know right from wrong.
For the past three years, I could say that my life have been him, me, him, me! And earlier when we had this discussion regarding those, I said this to him "hindi lang tayo ang tao sa mundo, walang kailangang piliin, wala kang ka-competensya sakin. walang nagpapa-pili sayo," and he said a lot! that it hurts me so much to the point even my family was included. its foul!
He is ANTI SOCIAL! BIG TIME!!!!!!!!!!!! and he want me to be the same. but I cannot. I know there is nothing wrong. But I really changed a lot from the time we became couple because thats what he wants and that is my choice. His a loving, caring person no doubt. But once he burst into anger all hurtful things will pop out to his mouth. And these sucks me so much. I have a good memeory in experience and it will take me a while to forget it.
I again, deactivated my facebook account and now I am thinking if i should deactivate my twitter too. But these blog? I won't! because he doesnt know I have this! and I do not have hundreds of followers here. And people is not interested with what I am posting. This is one way of showing him that he means so much to me. It's so silly. He acted like a ten year old kid. He doesnt even know how to RELAX! sometimes I want him to visit a psychiatrist and have couple of session but I'll bet he wouldnt believe what will the doctor say.
Aside from being ANTI SOCIAL, he don't accept opinions, his failure, when his wrong. He always want what he thinks. His a relogious person but sometimes I know its bad, but I think he is a fake believer of God. or he has faith in a wrong way. Am I bad? Oh yeah, I asked question that no one will bother to answer me back! And he is also obessess (in me) which is I think good factor but its way too obssess that he doesnt want me to have my own life or career. May be he wants but I should be ALONE WITH HIM!!!
Ill never forget what my professor told me, "if you really want to understand other people, you should know where they are coming from", I understand where he came from. But its too much. I do not know until when Ill be like this or he'll be like that.
argh! but the good thing though we're okay! :). I just want to voice out all my emotions so by the time I could talk to him tomorrow Im okay. We're okay. The relationship is still there.
I owe God big time for giving me this patience and understanding. I hope someday he (bf) will build a wall of fame or statue outside our house or somewhere in the land and write it down all the things Ive done for him.
I WISH!!!!
peace, one love, spread it out -from Cabbagie's Vblog.
have a good life! ;)
Sunday, March 6, 2011
An almost Car Accident
It's Sunday. A family day with my family. I was attacked by my hormonal imbalances. They're done preparing and Im not yet. My mom the usual "magmadali ka ever" shouted me already. Pero sabi nga nila eh kapag pinagmadali mo ko lalo akong bumabagal. But they're still looking at the mirror and until I finally came down coz Im done.
Walked. Waited for taxi and I said Ill ride the fx with Raymond. And so it was. Raymond came. No traffic. Less cars. A smooth sailing ride until we reached St. Francis area in Ortigas. Ilang metro na lang SM Mega Mall na. And the FX almost hit a privte car. BREAK! And boom! my body was pushed from the back seat to the middle seat. And Raymond bumped into my head, Actuall y I didnt felt that he bumped into my head. The old man in front of me, shouted "aray" naipit ung paa nya sa middle seat kasi umangat ung upuan at doon ako napasiksik!
Raymond asked me if I am okay. I said Iam. Masakit lang talaga ung hita ko. "may sugat ka ba?" wala naman. Until I flipped my pants and saw a 2inch scar in my legs. THAT WAS THE MOMENT RAYMOND SHOUTED TO THE FX DRIVER
"PUTANG INA KASI TONG DRIVER NA TO EH, GAGO!"
DRIVER LOOKED!
"DAHAN-DAHAN KA LANG KASI. NAKAKASAKIT KA EH!
DRIVER: DAHAN-DAHAN NAMAN PO TAYO AH. MAINGAT NAMAN.
R: SINISIGAWAN BA KITA AH.
ME: TAMA NA. BAY TAMA NA! SIGE MANONG OKAY LANG PO.
R: UMAYOS KA KASI EH.
D: MAAYOS NAMAN PO AH.
ME: MANONG PARA NA PO. ITABI NYO NA PO AT BABA NA KAMI.
tinabi. bumaba kami.
Hinala ko si Raymond, hindi ko sya pinagsabihan I know he's just mad because of what happened to me. He proved (unconciously) lang talaga na he wanted me to be safe all the time.
R: Masakit pa ba?
ME: Oo, ung hita ko talaga masakit eh.
R: tarantado talagang driver un. Kala ko nga bumaba eh. Kung bumaba un nd i ko talaga uurungan un! bubugbugin ko talaga un.
M: oh tama na!
R: Okay lang sana kung ako masaktan eh. wag lang ikaw. tarantado talaga un. Minura ba nya ako?
M: hindi. ikaw ang nagmura! =))
R: dun sa matanda okay lang eh. wala ako pakialam. pero nung nakita ko ung sugat mo. nag dilim paningin ko eh. kung baril ako siguro nabaril ko na un.
M: grabe ka naman.
R: totoo nga! sa susunod ako na mauuna maupo ah. lesson learned.
M: at un talaga ang lesson learned mo. =)))
After the mass.
R: humingi ako ng sorry kay papa jesus at mama mary sa sinabi ko kanina.
M: di ba dapat sa driver ka rin humnige ng sorry?
R: bahala sya.
Walked. Waited for taxi and I said Ill ride the fx with Raymond. And so it was. Raymond came. No traffic. Less cars. A smooth sailing ride until we reached St. Francis area in Ortigas. Ilang metro na lang SM Mega Mall na. And the FX almost hit a privte car. BREAK! And boom! my body was pushed from the back seat to the middle seat. And Raymond bumped into my head, Actuall y I didnt felt that he bumped into my head. The old man in front of me, shouted "aray" naipit ung paa nya sa middle seat kasi umangat ung upuan at doon ako napasiksik!
Raymond asked me if I am okay. I said Iam. Masakit lang talaga ung hita ko. "may sugat ka ba?" wala naman. Until I flipped my pants and saw a 2inch scar in my legs. THAT WAS THE MOMENT RAYMOND SHOUTED TO THE FX DRIVER
"PUTANG INA KASI TONG DRIVER NA TO EH, GAGO!"
DRIVER LOOKED!
"DAHAN-DAHAN KA LANG KASI. NAKAKASAKIT KA EH!
DRIVER: DAHAN-DAHAN NAMAN PO TAYO AH. MAINGAT NAMAN.
R: SINISIGAWAN BA KITA AH.
ME: TAMA NA. BAY TAMA NA! SIGE MANONG OKAY LANG PO.
R: UMAYOS KA KASI EH.
D: MAAYOS NAMAN PO AH.
ME: MANONG PARA NA PO. ITABI NYO NA PO AT BABA NA KAMI.
tinabi. bumaba kami.
Hinala ko si Raymond, hindi ko sya pinagsabihan I know he's just mad because of what happened to me. He proved (unconciously) lang talaga na he wanted me to be safe all the time.
R: Masakit pa ba?
ME: Oo, ung hita ko talaga masakit eh.
R: tarantado talagang driver un. Kala ko nga bumaba eh. Kung bumaba un nd i ko talaga uurungan un! bubugbugin ko talaga un.
M: oh tama na!
R: Okay lang sana kung ako masaktan eh. wag lang ikaw. tarantado talaga un. Minura ba nya ako?
M: hindi. ikaw ang nagmura! =))
R: dun sa matanda okay lang eh. wala ako pakialam. pero nung nakita ko ung sugat mo. nag dilim paningin ko eh. kung baril ako siguro nabaril ko na un.
M: grabe ka naman.
R: totoo nga! sa susunod ako na mauuna maupo ah. lesson learned.
M: at un talaga ang lesson learned mo. =)))
After the mass.
R: humingi ako ng sorry kay papa jesus at mama mary sa sinabi ko kanina.
M: di ba dapat sa driver ka rin humnige ng sorry?
R: bahala sya.
M: =)).
R: pag pray na lang natin ung mga ganong klase ng tao.
M: ipagprapray din kita wag masyadong highblood. natense ako sau eh. eksena tau sa FX.
R: =))
Lunch served at Shakey's and here at the Restroom i got the glimpse to see what happened to my tighs. NAMAMAGA AT MAY 4 NA SUGAT. I took a picture. Raymond saw it. and all he can say is "tsk tsk tsk" and my Dad "anong plate no. nung FX? nakita mo ba?" my mom "hindi man lang ba nagtanong kung may nasaktan?" I BOTH ANSWERED THEM "NO" dad: bumili ka ng antibiotic at betadine gamutin mo yan pag uwe ah." "yes dad"
****** Never mess with him lalo na kapag nasaktan ako. SCARY KASI EH. =))) ******** hindi ako 'yong magagalit, sya. as in big time. ung kala ko sa movie lang sya pwde rin pala in real life. well, I am blessed to have this man in my life that he'll fight for me and be with me in every aspect of my life. OA but true.
R: pag pray na lang natin ung mga ganong klase ng tao.
M: ipagprapray din kita wag masyadong highblood. natense ako sau eh. eksena tau sa FX.
R: =))
Lunch served at Shakey's and here at the Restroom i got the glimpse to see what happened to my tighs. NAMAMAGA AT MAY 4 NA SUGAT. I took a picture. Raymond saw it. and all he can say is "tsk tsk tsk" and my Dad "anong plate no. nung FX? nakita mo ba?" my mom "hindi man lang ba nagtanong kung may nasaktan?" I BOTH ANSWERED THEM "NO" dad: bumili ka ng antibiotic at betadine gamutin mo yan pag uwe ah." "yes dad"
****** Never mess with him lalo na kapag nasaktan ako. SCARY KASI EH. =))) ******** hindi ako 'yong magagalit, sya. as in big time. ung kala ko sa movie lang sya pwde rin pala in real life. well, I am blessed to have this man in my life that he'll fight for me and be with me in every aspect of my life. OA but true.
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