I thought everything will fall into places, a place where everyone wants to be.
Now, I asked myself where was that place?
It's been five years, a five short years that I was with him. I do not see anyone else aside from him. I don't see even myself. I was blinded by his so called love. I was too busy loving him and forgot that I should or I must also love myself (first).
It is never been easy being his girlfriend, I avoided the person I used to be or the person who I really am. A person who has lot of friends, go out with friends, go out on a movie dates, go out of towns, but if he said no, its a no. I could say that I am more obedient girlfriend than a daughter. Id loved him more than anything else.
I do not know where to begin or how to love myself. They say we must love ourselves prior loving someone else. But right now, I do not know how. I do not know where to begin.
I needed him more than anything else. I planned my life with him.
And tomorrow if I wake up I hope and pray that God will answer my prayer and be with him again.
I am blinded with his love because I know there's goodness in person's heart.
He just needed time for himself and I will give it that to him but it doesn't mean I'll give up.
If in case he'll read this, I want you to know that I can wait for you even if it takes a life time.
